Dear Wife
It’s been so long. And it’s getting so cold over here. The house. The bed. Everything is just too cold.
Missing you took a new dimension to me. It feels like pain, like suffocating. It’s so difficult without you around.
I’m so happy we had that long heart-to-heart talk over the phone. I know you’re stressed out. And I know you’re grieving over your loss. I want to be as supportive and understanding in your moment of your weakness. I wish I could be there with you.
I wish I could just see you for a minute. Touch your face. Rub your hands like you used to like me to do. I miss smelling you in the house. I miss our long drives by the lake, drinking coffee and just unwinding. I even miss our endless fights
Everything around here feels much darker than usual. Tasteless, empty and cold. The whole place awaits your fire to kick-start it back to life
Kiss our angels good night from baba. As for you, I’m keeping all your kisses here. Safe with me. You’ve saved a bunch now.
Agonizingly missing you
Your loving hubby
6 Comments
November 14, 2007 at 10:40 pm
i have no idea why do i cry when i read your posts most of the time!! but i do… allah yraje3lak yaha bel salameh!
November 14, 2007 at 11:21 pm
This is the first time Im here.. Is she away or something? if not, did you try to make her feel this important when she was there.. living in the same house?
November 15, 2007 at 12:29 am
I’m sorry Maioush for making you upset.
Dima, yes I do. All the time, All the time. You can’t imagine how much I love this woman. Despite everything
November 15, 2007 at 6:06 am
what do you mean everything? you’re divorced.. married? or is it just something you write to enjoy blogging
November 15, 2007 at 7:22 am
hmmmmmm.. grief now, but right after her father’s death she was camping in Rum.. Unlike Maioush, I do not cry when I listen and hear your stories. I just have an unsettling feeling to the way you unfold your story/stories.
November 15, 2007 at 7:42 am
Dima. She’s in Amman right now mourning her father.
Pink. Someone told her that she needs to relax a bit to help with facing the loss. It wasn’t her idea. She was kinda dragged into it
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